Flashback 2 years ago:
I could do only minimal errands and that was only by listening to my iPod turned up, running in and running out. Get-togethers were very hard because I’d have to know how many people were going to be there to mentally prepare and if there were more, unexpected ones, I usually had to leave. For the most part, La went to social events alone and her friends and coworkers doubted my actual existence.
After not enough sleep, an exhausting workout in the morning, and a too short nap, I went with La to the 50th birthday party of one of her friends/past coworkers – at a place I had never been, where I only knew about 4 people of the 40 plus folks there! I introduced myself first, talked to people I didn’t know, sat and chatted with two of our friends, all with only a brief period of low grade anxiety. THIS WAS A HUGE CHALLENGE MET!!!
I’ve been battling anxiety for almost 10 years now and I’ve had to leave (read: lost) 3 jobs and a lot of friends because of the meds, episodes, and general inability to function from daily, sometimes hourly panic attacks.
From daily anxiety it’s now once a month maybe and “normal” situational anticipatory anxiety (i.e. a new gym class, new restaurant, new friendships).
All I can do is express incredible gratitude to the amazing people who helped me get here, inspiring, supporting, and just plain love. Money, fame, success, all of those mean nothing without someone else to share them with. Thank you universe, for the blessings I have in my life and thank you those who read this blog for your support, amazing comments, and just being out there!
More inspiration and excitement tomorrow – sending out love and thanks through “space”!
- Anticipatory Anxiety (neumannpsychology.wordpress.com)
- Anxiety Treatments (neumannpsychology.wordpress.com)
- Anxiety (evatenter.wordpress.com)
- Panic or Anxiety attacks (liscafo.wordpress.com)
- ~ Anxious anticipation ~ (mymanicmoments.wordpress.com)
- Whitianga woman missing (radionz.co.nz)
- My Personal Panic (angelschoice.wordpress.com)
- Panic Attacks: Stop! (toughwords.wordpress.com)